Highlight: Scrabble with my Dad Listening to: Mack the Knife
I am now a resident of Strong Memorial Hospital for hopefully, the rest of the year. My last stay was for 9 days and they did not want to let me go home because the doctor was certain that my water was going to break any day; due to a Placental Abruption which occurs in less than 1% of pregnancies. But I begged for release, and at least had 7.5 happy home days before returning to the ER and finding out that my water in fact did break. This called a Preterm Premature Rupture ofMembranes, or PPROM, and occurs in less than 3% of pregnancies.
The reason I need to be hospitalized is for all the risks that come into play when you have a PPROM. Most importantly, I could go into labor any day between now and my due date of January 25. However, if I haven’t gone into labor at 36 weeks they can induce labor if they deem it necessary at that point which I think would be about December 28 if my math is correct (highly unlikely). The longer I am here, the more the bun gets to cook in the oven, the healthier she will be. At 36 weeks she will be (4 weeks) premature and have to stay in the NICU for a while.
If I am honest … there are at least 50 reasons why this situation is extremely unfortunate. Obviously the list would begin with the reality that I will be delivering a premature baby no matter what and the risks associated with that. Particularly because this will be my one and only chance at doing this motherhood thing (which I am still in a bit of denial about). Even if I wanted to have more little humans after this one, I also have a ginormous fibroid and will need to have my entire uterus removed post-delivery.
My attitude here has been nothing but optimistic and positive because that is the one thing I can do for this kiddo. Halloween is my jam and I am totally missing it … my parents and I decorated my house/yard last weekend but I can say that at least I was able to enjoy it for a couple of days. I miss my hairy child tremendously, when I came home from the hospital the first time he was super snuggly for every moment I spent there … but we FaceTime, and my parents have a plan to bring him here for some cuddle time! I know things will all work out for the best, as some wise ones once said to me … this is temporary; distressing not dangerous … I gots dis.